Ad Man ~ Master's Student - BIC @ CCNY ~ Runner - 5K✔, 10K✔, 13.1✔, 26.2 ⬜
#INFJ - NiFeTiSe
Portfolio: http://flavors.me/javi

 

It’s the strangest thing, but I swear I can’t help but pick up on the weirdest similarities between people. It’s scary, delightful, and questionable, all at the same time. 

Happy 20th birthday to one of the greatest games ever made. :) #FinalFantasyVI

Happy 20th birthday to one of the greatest games ever made. :) #FinalFantasyVI

I’m not telling you it’s going to be easy - I’m telling you it’s going to be worth it.”

A text post? Yes…it’s true. Instead of the usual endless mass of reblogs and amusing gifs, I’m testing the waters to see if this is actually a viable means of getting my thoughts across.

Change is strange, and uncomfortable, but necessary. Bear with me.

The last few months have been an exceptionally transformational period for me. Having seen my exit from several life situations, both of and not of my own choosing, I am finally able to all of the open doors being blocked by the settling dust. And now that I’ve finally had the opportunity I long knew I needed - the opportunity to reflect upon half a decade of back to back change - I can say with pride that so far, everything has been worth it. And the journey that awaits me has enough potential, enough opportunity, and enough risk for me to pour my heart into it. 

Grad school has me working on an exciting non-profit client that saves lives - literally.
Running has taken me 40 pounds lighter, 2000+ miles farther, and 1 marathon closer to realizing my physical and spiritual self.
My business idea is finally going to get its much needed foundation off the ground, I have a colleague completely interested in helping, and people’s eyes light up almost as much as mine do when I share the idea with them. 
And in about 8 months from now, I’ll have a portfolio capturing all of the above, all of my acquired expertise and potential, and I will use it to defend my graduating with my Master’s degree - the first in my family to even graduate from college to begin with. And I owe the world to my parents and everyone who has had the patience and heart to help me through it all. 

I’m exceptionally proud of it all, but I’ll cut the humblebragging off right here, and bring you back to the titular quote.

I’m not telling you it’s going to be easy - I’m telling you it’s going to be worth it.

If you have an inkling of where you should be going, or what you should be doing, listen to your gut and go all in. You only get one chance to live the life you fantasize of living. One. Fucking. Chance. And as you read this, the chances you have at getting to where you need to be are ticking away. Don’t get stuck living the life others expect you to live. Don’t settle for their standards. Don’t be who they want you to be.
It might take years of reflection, or years of cautiously observing your environments and surroundings, but the only way to truly understand what is right for you is to learn how to remove yourself from your situations and see yourself as a singularity. And from that, understand the impact you wish to have on the world. 
As I begrudgingly approach 30 next year, I can at least do so with my head held up high knowing that I’m headed towards the life I set out to live many years ago. That I’ve grown to become more of the person I envisioned myself becoming, even when I didn’t truly know and understand myself - a feat that, in and of itself, was a monumental achievement I hold dear.

But this is it. Now’s your chance. Don’t assume that the life you wish to live will be a given.

Ask for help. Look for answers. Do new things. Do your own thing. Take risk. Fall flat on your face. Make a fool of yourself, and subject yourself to the judgment of others. Do the things that others would not think to, or have the guts to do. Get desperate. Do whatever it takes, and then keep doing it. And most importantly - don’t give up. 

Your friends and family and colleagues are more here to help you than you can possibly imagine. So push yourself, exhaust yourself, be bold, be an inspiration, and make the most of it, while you can.

And get plenty of rest in between.

It’s going to be worth it. 

All men dream: but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dreams with open eyes, to make it possible.

T.E. Lawrence

#centralparkafterdark #running  (at Harlem Meer)

#centralparkafterdark #running (at Harlem Meer)

Bliss.
#running #nyc #centralpark  (at Central Park)

Bliss.
#running #nyc #centralpark (at Central Park)

It’s gotten to a point where everybody is concerned about their rights and nobody is concerned about their duties.

Zadie Smith at the 2014 New Yorker Festival, commenting on her spectacular recent essay on the modern cult of self-actualization (via explore-blog)

3 years ago, around this time of year, I was 40lbs heavier, completely sedentary, and afraid to take that first step. 3 years later, I’m 3 weeks away from #running my first marathon, 40lbs lighter, and bolder than ever before. 

Some of us may daydream about the day we will summon the courage to improve the things we don’t like about ourselves, and amplify the things that we do. Let that day be today, so you can savor it with the world tomorrow. You will be grateful that you did, and those journeying through life with you will be, too.
Be your self.

3 years ago, around this time of year, I was 40lbs heavier, completely sedentary, and afraid to take that first step. 3 years later, I’m 3 weeks away from #running my first marathon, 40lbs lighter, and bolder than ever before.

Some of us may daydream about the day we will summon the courage to improve the things we don’t like about ourselves, and amplify the things that we do. Let that day be today, so you can savor it with the world tomorrow. You will be grateful that you did, and those journeying through life with you will be, too.
Be your self.